So it's been a pretty long day! After my last post I had a big bowl of cereal and slept until 9ish. I woke up super hungry again, so I made second-breakfast.
I was feeling okay, just a little crampy, but nothing to try and time. Stephanie came over because we had plans to visit Logan, Natalie and Tim. Logan is so sweet! It's really amazing how much he's changed in such as short time. I was really in awe of him too. All I could keep thinking is that I am going to have my own in a matter of days!!
Natalie found some baby pics of Brad!! I am way too excited to have them (I will scan them in as soon as I can - maybe at work tomorrow?) What's really funny is this weekend Steph told me she had two dreams about me. The first dream the baby had a head full of blond hair (Brad and I are both brunettes so not likely...) and the second dream she said my baby was born 15 pounds! Well, having never seen a baby pic of Brad before, you could have knocked me over with a feather when I saw how BLOND his hair was -- like bleach blond!!! It will be so ironic if the baby is born with a head full of blond hair...I'm sure I can handle that dream coming true a little bit better than the 15-pound baby dream!
So while at Natalie's I lost more goopiness. Afterwards we went to Walmart and I had more noticeable contractions and a LOT more goopiness came out. (thank goodness I thought to wear a pad) Later at my house Stephanie coaxed me to do some squats -- I did them in the bath tub for fear of having to clean up if my water broke -- :)
and after my squats more goo came out. Sorry if this is TMI people, but it's all part of the process.
So Brad and I went for a walk this evening and I've been timing uncomfortable contractions (not painful really) for the last 45 minutes or so. They are steadily 6-7 minutes apart and range from 35-50 seconds long. The ones I feel wrap around my back are much more uncomfortable and they last a little bit longer. So...anyway, I'm still not sure if this is labor or not. I figure since it doesn't hurt really bad I'm going to ignore them as long as possible. So It's now 10:15 in the evening and it's been 18-19 hours since the initial part of the plug fell out. If google info is right and first time moms go into labor after 48 hours or so, then hopefully it wont be long! -- but google also said it could be 3 weeks too
Sunday, July 12, 2009
7/11 has come and gone...
On a good note I will not remember my child's birthday thinking of a mini-mart/gas station :)
I'm not going to lie, I was pretty frustrated yesterday, at least hoping for some type "sign" that things are still moving along. Nothing really, however Stephanie and I got a really nice pedicure...I should have treated myself a long time ago. After that I went to the baby store and picked up some random things. I guess I was just trying to busy myself since Brad always has somewhere to be (Baseball again).
Later on I met at a BBQ and hung out for a bit, got advice from moms (and some sympathy too). After I had enough baby/birth/labor/bla-de-bla-blabla talk, Mary and I went to dinner and chatted about our normal issues. I went home, found that I had to clean up piss from the oriental rug my mom gave us (yeaaa....Brad left tipsy out, again - so I had to clean up piss/shit again - )
So that was the perfect ending to a due-date kind of day.
Oh, I did buy some red raspberry leaf tea and had a cup of that and watched my all time favorite Bridget Jones' Diary before falling asleep. The tea was actually good!
Well this morning was a different story. I woke up around 4:30 like normal to go pee and just had really uncomfortable back/menstrual pains. I tried to lay back down and decided that bath sounded better. Before I get into the bath, out came part of my plug! It was not as disgusting as I thought. So I sat in the bath and had a freak out moment trying to figure out how to escape the pending labor/motherhood for a few minutes - but eventually I was able to relax myself. So after my bath I decided to try and lay back down in bed, but as soon as I did the more uncomfortable I felt. I then decided to walk the neighborhood for about 20 minutes until I realized I was starving. So now here I am, realizing that true labor could still be far away, but can't help but feel a little excitement and fear.
For now, It's 6:15 am, I'm going to drink some more tea, eat my cereal and try to go back to sleep.
I'm not going to lie, I was pretty frustrated yesterday, at least hoping for some type "sign" that things are still moving along. Nothing really, however Stephanie and I got a really nice pedicure...I should have treated myself a long time ago. After that I went to the baby store and picked up some random things. I guess I was just trying to busy myself since Brad always has somewhere to be (Baseball again).
Later on I met at a BBQ and hung out for a bit, got advice from moms (and some sympathy too). After I had enough baby/birth/labor/bla-de-bla-blabla talk, Mary and I went to dinner and chatted about our normal issues. I went home, found that I had to clean up piss from the oriental rug my mom gave us (yeaaa....Brad left tipsy out, again - so I had to clean up piss/shit again - )
So that was the perfect ending to a due-date kind of day.
Oh, I did buy some red raspberry leaf tea and had a cup of that and watched my all time favorite Bridget Jones' Diary before falling asleep. The tea was actually good!
Well this morning was a different story. I woke up around 4:30 like normal to go pee and just had really uncomfortable back/menstrual pains. I tried to lay back down and decided that bath sounded better. Before I get into the bath, out came part of my plug! It was not as disgusting as I thought. So I sat in the bath and had a freak out moment trying to figure out how to escape the pending labor/motherhood for a few minutes - but eventually I was able to relax myself. So after my bath I decided to try and lay back down in bed, but as soon as I did the more uncomfortable I felt. I then decided to walk the neighborhood for about 20 minutes until I realized I was starving. So now here I am, realizing that true labor could still be far away, but can't help but feel a little excitement and fear.
For now, It's 6:15 am, I'm going to drink some more tea, eat my cereal and try to go back to sleep.
Friday, July 10, 2009
Really, just one day??
yea right. I don't see anything moving along yet....It will be a miracle if I have the baby tomorrow...
It's okay though, it gives me time to get my act together. Since my dragon episode things have been better in that regard (dr. told me to take one pepcid ac before bed). However my nickel allergy started kicking in again.
Yesterday while I was sitting here at work my whole right hand and forearm swelled and broke out into teeny ITCHY bumps. This happened to me early in the pregnancy. I went to my dermatologist who said it was just eczema and prescribed me a steroid that Walgreen's pharmacy REFUSED to give to me because it was a category X. --- Yea, so obviously I will never go back to my dermatologist again (she knew I was pregnant). I bring this up because it fueled my research that I DO NOT BELIEVE IN ECZEMA.
It may be a legit diagnosis for some, but for me I think it's BS. It's a doctor's way of saying "We don't know what the hell is wrong with you, so you just have this "eczema" we can clear up with a steroid". Come to find out, I was right. I don't have eczema I have a nickel allergy SO bad that when I was slathering myself in cocoa butter early 2nd trimester, I was absorbing too much nickel naturally found in cocoa....interesting isn't it. As soon as I stopped the Palmer's, my itch was gone.
So back to yesterday. I'm freaking out again....well it didn't take me long to figure out that my problem was right on my desk. I have been addicted to eating sunflower seeds while I'm at work. Sunflower seed are super high in nickel....so needless to say I have been chewing gum today, and not seeds and my itch is almost gone.
I bring up this story because it got me thinking of other things I'm allergic too. I went to an allergist a few years ago to find out how severe my nickel allergy was and found out I was also allergic to -caine medications. This had me concerned, because just in case I have to be induced with labor and it's too intense for me to go through without pain management, I don't want to be stabbed in my back with a drug I'm allergic to. So, I called my allergist and of course nothing is ever easy with medical requests, right?
He had since moved locations, I'm no longer current in their system so they don't have my records. I have to call XYZ to get my info. So I called and you could just tell the lady on the other end of the phone HATES her job. I told her I need my records and it will take 30 days just to process my request, is what she tells me.
To my amazement, I told her my circumstances, "I'm due Saturday, and I know I should have considered this earlier, but I'm afraid I'm allergic to medicine they will administer during labor" She replied, "Oh sweetheart I don't want anything to happen to you or your baby, so you come by tomorrow and I'll have them at the front desk for you."
my jaw dropped. I learned my lesson...don't be too quick to judge. So now I feel pretty relieved that I will have my allergy information, just in case I need an epi. Also, I LOVE my hospital. I called yesterday to find out exactly what drugs are used in the epidurals. They had to transfer me to a few people before they got someone who could help, but I got my info (I'll start researching tonight).
Basically they numb with bupivocaine (I'm allergic) and the epi itself is a mixture of Fenanyl and Sufentanil --- I'm not sure what that means at all, but I'll figure it out :)
So that's my latest scoop. We went to dinner last night with Brad's mom and dad, my mom, George, Steph, Allison, Becky, Jon and Emma to celebrate Brad graduating college and a going away for George (he left today for Virginia DEA school). So it was kind of bitter sweet I suppose.
So now I'm off to meet this wonderful lady Angie who dug up my medical records because she cares about me and my baby. Then I'm off to get every natural induction idea google has ever had to offer...
It's okay though, it gives me time to get my act together. Since my dragon episode things have been better in that regard (dr. told me to take one pepcid ac before bed). However my nickel allergy started kicking in again.
Yesterday while I was sitting here at work my whole right hand and forearm swelled and broke out into teeny ITCHY bumps. This happened to me early in the pregnancy. I went to my dermatologist who said it was just eczema and prescribed me a steroid that Walgreen's pharmacy REFUSED to give to me because it was a category X. --- Yea, so obviously I will never go back to my dermatologist again (she knew I was pregnant). I bring this up because it fueled my research that I DO NOT BELIEVE IN ECZEMA.
It may be a legit diagnosis for some, but for me I think it's BS. It's a doctor's way of saying "We don't know what the hell is wrong with you, so you just have this "eczema" we can clear up with a steroid". Come to find out, I was right. I don't have eczema I have a nickel allergy SO bad that when I was slathering myself in cocoa butter early 2nd trimester, I was absorbing too much nickel naturally found in cocoa....interesting isn't it. As soon as I stopped the Palmer's, my itch was gone.
So back to yesterday. I'm freaking out again....well it didn't take me long to figure out that my problem was right on my desk. I have been addicted to eating sunflower seeds while I'm at work. Sunflower seed are super high in nickel....so needless to say I have been chewing gum today, and not seeds and my itch is almost gone.
I bring up this story because it got me thinking of other things I'm allergic too. I went to an allergist a few years ago to find out how severe my nickel allergy was and found out I was also allergic to -caine medications. This had me concerned, because just in case I have to be induced with labor and it's too intense for me to go through without pain management, I don't want to be stabbed in my back with a drug I'm allergic to. So, I called my allergist and of course nothing is ever easy with medical requests, right?
He had since moved locations, I'm no longer current in their system so they don't have my records. I have to call XYZ to get my info. So I called and you could just tell the lady on the other end of the phone HATES her job. I told her I need my records and it will take 30 days just to process my request, is what she tells me.
To my amazement, I told her my circumstances, "I'm due Saturday, and I know I should have considered this earlier, but I'm afraid I'm allergic to medicine they will administer during labor" She replied, "Oh sweetheart I don't want anything to happen to you or your baby, so you come by tomorrow and I'll have them at the front desk for you."
my jaw dropped. I learned my lesson...don't be too quick to judge. So now I feel pretty relieved that I will have my allergy information, just in case I need an epi. Also, I LOVE my hospital. I called yesterday to find out exactly what drugs are used in the epidurals. They had to transfer me to a few people before they got someone who could help, but I got my info (I'll start researching tonight).
Basically they numb with bupivocaine (I'm allergic) and the epi itself is a mixture of Fenanyl and Sufentanil --- I'm not sure what that means at all, but I'll figure it out :)
So that's my latest scoop. We went to dinner last night with Brad's mom and dad, my mom, George, Steph, Allison, Becky, Jon and Emma to celebrate Brad graduating college and a going away for George (he left today for Virginia DEA school). So it was kind of bitter sweet I suppose.
So now I'm off to meet this wonderful lady Angie who dug up my medical records because she cares about me and my baby. Then I'm off to get every natural induction idea google has ever had to offer...
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
The worst night of my life
was last night.
Early evening everything was pretty good. Brad and I went on a nice walk through New Town, got back home and just relaxed. I made brownies to have waiting for me after the walk (mmmmm, by the way). Around 10:30 it started. I felt a fire brewing in my chest and throat. I had only felt heartburn/indigestion once before and I think it was during my second trimester.
I consulted the pregos on thebump.com and they suggested to get tums, drink milk, etc.
I decided to try and go to sleep and since we didn't have any tums in the house. I did my mom's trick and swallowed a little bit of arm and hammer baking soda just to take the edge off the burning.
3:00 am rolls around. DEAR LORD. That was the most awful, horrifying experience I'd ever felt. It was really like I was a fire breathing dragon and hot liquid lava was pouring out of my throat, mouth and nose. I couldn't take it. I threw my shirt on, a pair of pants and drove like a bat out of hell to find some kind of relief at the closest gas station.
The attendant must have felt so bad for me. I'm bawling my eyes out, I realize my shirt is on backwards and I am grabbing every roll of tums and Rolaids that they have. I grab a bottle of milk, pay and the attendant wishes me best of luck and hopes I feel better. On my way home I called Beequee because I know she suffered heartburn with Emma pretty bad, and she said the only thing I can do is eat tums and sit up right. (I felt bad calling her, because after her full-moon-labor-prediction I probably just teased her with my 3:15 am phone call about how I'd become a fire breathing dragon)
I had eaten a half a roll of tums by the time I got home, drank half my milk when I realized that my throat was so burned that the cold milk was not offering any relief - I really didn't even feel it going down!
So I made myself comfortable in the closet, sat on a pillow and fell asleep propped up on my exercise ball. That worked for about an hour, then I moved to the couch and propped myself up on pillows and finally got some sleep.
The whole time during this fiasco the stupid Incubus song is going through my head...
::pardon me while I burst, into flames:::
I woke up thinking it was all over. WRONG. After I brushed my teeth I spewed more liquid lava from the depths of my acid reservoir. It is so awful. I can't imagine people that have to deal with this on a frequent basis.
I was talking to Cara today about my episode last night and she told me how she suffered the same thing only it was her gallbladder giving her the problem. This concerned me because I know my mom had to her gallbladder removed after delivering me because of similar symptoms. I'm fairly healthly, so I'm not concerned that I have the same issue. But it is concerning enough that I will call Dr. Chen -- I've eaten 4 tums since beginning this blog -- He mentioned getting an u/s on my next visit, so I'll ask if he can just take a peak and make sure that it looks normal.
Until then I will eat no more shit food. I'm going to go to the farmers market and eat fresh, whole foods as much as possible.
What sucks even more!! Is that I know I was having contractions last night, but I was too wrapped up in my dragon issues to even start to get excited about them....I'll pay more attention today.
Early evening everything was pretty good. Brad and I went on a nice walk through New Town, got back home and just relaxed. I made brownies to have waiting for me after the walk (mmmmm, by the way). Around 10:30 it started. I felt a fire brewing in my chest and throat. I had only felt heartburn/indigestion once before and I think it was during my second trimester.
I consulted the pregos on thebump.com and they suggested to get tums, drink milk, etc.
I decided to try and go to sleep and since we didn't have any tums in the house. I did my mom's trick and swallowed a little bit of arm and hammer baking soda just to take the edge off the burning.
3:00 am rolls around. DEAR LORD. That was the most awful, horrifying experience I'd ever felt. It was really like I was a fire breathing dragon and hot liquid lava was pouring out of my throat, mouth and nose. I couldn't take it. I threw my shirt on, a pair of pants and drove like a bat out of hell to find some kind of relief at the closest gas station.
The attendant must have felt so bad for me. I'm bawling my eyes out, I realize my shirt is on backwards and I am grabbing every roll of tums and Rolaids that they have. I grab a bottle of milk, pay and the attendant wishes me best of luck and hopes I feel better. On my way home I called Beequee because I know she suffered heartburn with Emma pretty bad, and she said the only thing I can do is eat tums and sit up right. (I felt bad calling her, because after her full-moon-labor-prediction I probably just teased her with my 3:15 am phone call about how I'd become a fire breathing dragon)
I had eaten a half a roll of tums by the time I got home, drank half my milk when I realized that my throat was so burned that the cold milk was not offering any relief - I really didn't even feel it going down!
So I made myself comfortable in the closet, sat on a pillow and fell asleep propped up on my exercise ball. That worked for about an hour, then I moved to the couch and propped myself up on pillows and finally got some sleep.
The whole time during this fiasco the stupid Incubus song is going through my head...
::pardon me while I burst, into flames:::
I woke up thinking it was all over. WRONG. After I brushed my teeth I spewed more liquid lava from the depths of my acid reservoir. It is so awful. I can't imagine people that have to deal with this on a frequent basis.
I was talking to Cara today about my episode last night and she told me how she suffered the same thing only it was her gallbladder giving her the problem. This concerned me because I know my mom had to her gallbladder removed after delivering me because of similar symptoms. I'm fairly healthly, so I'm not concerned that I have the same issue. But it is concerning enough that I will call Dr. Chen -- I've eaten 4 tums since beginning this blog -- He mentioned getting an u/s on my next visit, so I'll ask if he can just take a peak and make sure that it looks normal.
Until then I will eat no more shit food. I'm going to go to the farmers market and eat fresh, whole foods as much as possible.
What sucks even more!! Is that I know I was having contractions last night, but I was too wrapped up in my dragon issues to even start to get excited about them....I'll pay more attention today.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
39 week appointment
Ugh. 50% effaced, not dilated - at all.
We had the induction talk with Dr. Chen today. He said he feels comfortable allowing me to go until July 21st. That is 10 days over the due date. I want to give the baby every opportunity to come on his own.
I'm getting kind of nervous about the whole hospital idea. I have very unpleasant memories of being in a hospital when I broke my leg and subsequent surgeries of being in the ICU for blood issues. I really wish St. Louis had some kind of birthing center, but apparently the closest one is Columbia, MO - not an option. I know the circumstances are going to be different (and so will the hospital - THANK GOD) but it makes me really anxious when I think about being in there. I really want this labor to come naturally so I don't have to be hooked up to IV fluids/medications for induction. I want to feel as free and natural as possible, not some medical, sick case.
Brad and I talked about our options and it seems that if we have to be induced that Friday, July 17th is the best date. That way he can stay at the hospital with me and the baby over the weekend and use vacation starting on the day we'd go home (assuming the following Monday). But then I think -- what if Elijah just needed an extra full week to bake in there and he'd come on his own on the 18th?? This is truly going to drive me crazy with all the what-if scenarios. I know I'm thinking about this too much and was warned that my birth plan would not be 100% according to MY plans. But I really don't want any synthetic chemicals going through me or the baby, nor do I want to be a patient at a hospital - I want to be a woman in labor.
aaah....it drives me crazy. I just need to focus that no matter what I will have a baby and the journey that got him out will not be as important as the fact that he is indeed out.
We had the induction talk with Dr. Chen today. He said he feels comfortable allowing me to go until July 21st. That is 10 days over the due date. I want to give the baby every opportunity to come on his own.
I'm getting kind of nervous about the whole hospital idea. I have very unpleasant memories of being in a hospital when I broke my leg and subsequent surgeries of being in the ICU for blood issues. I really wish St. Louis had some kind of birthing center, but apparently the closest one is Columbia, MO - not an option. I know the circumstances are going to be different (and so will the hospital - THANK GOD) but it makes me really anxious when I think about being in there. I really want this labor to come naturally so I don't have to be hooked up to IV fluids/medications for induction. I want to feel as free and natural as possible, not some medical, sick case.
Brad and I talked about our options and it seems that if we have to be induced that Friday, July 17th is the best date. That way he can stay at the hospital with me and the baby over the weekend and use vacation starting on the day we'd go home (assuming the following Monday). But then I think -- what if Elijah just needed an extra full week to bake in there and he'd come on his own on the 18th?? This is truly going to drive me crazy with all the what-if scenarios. I know I'm thinking about this too much and was warned that my birth plan would not be 100% according to MY plans. But I really don't want any synthetic chemicals going through me or the baby, nor do I want to be a patient at a hospital - I want to be a woman in labor.
aaah....it drives me crazy. I just need to focus that no matter what I will have a baby and the journey that got him out will not be as important as the fact that he is indeed out.
Get out baby...
Dear Elijah,
You know I love you already, but it's time that you get out.
Technically you still have 4 days left, but enough is enough. We're getting ready to go to Dr. Chen in a few hours, so I hope you have been busy during your stay in my uterus this last week. I hope all of the uncomfortable pressure your little noggin puts on my bladder is working to dialate and thin my cervix too.
Can I also mention that you're making mommy's tummy SO itchy. I don't want you to stop growing --- I just want you to stop growing inside of me. It's time to come out.
I have been walking like crazy, using the exercise ball, squatting and other things you're too young to know about. So, I'm doing my part -- are you doing yours?
Your Aunt Beequee says tonight is the night, since it is a full moon. She also wants you to wait until the 14th since it's her birthday -- don't listen when she talks that nonsense :) I know that you'll come when you ready, but I hope it's soon. Your Uncle Geegee would like to meet you too. He has to leave Thursday for three months. So, come on out!
Also I'm getting worried that you may poop while you're still in there. Don't do it, please. It's not good news for your little lungs, and it is really, really gross to think about poopies in mommy.
Daddy is really excited for you to come out too!! We're waiting to meet you and see who you look like. He thinks that you'll have my thin ears (he likes to tease me about them). I hope you get his super sweet dimples. We love you so much!! Come out so we can squeeze and snuggle you! (between you and me, I need a new snuggle buddy. Your puppy Tipsy likes to lay on daddy ALL the time, so I get left with snuggling with your kitty Tacoose. So will you come out and snuggle me?!)
We're waiting for you - not very patiently - but waiting. :)
love,
mommy
You know I love you already, but it's time that you get out.
Technically you still have 4 days left, but enough is enough. We're getting ready to go to Dr. Chen in a few hours, so I hope you have been busy during your stay in my uterus this last week. I hope all of the uncomfortable pressure your little noggin puts on my bladder is working to dialate and thin my cervix too.
Can I also mention that you're making mommy's tummy SO itchy. I don't want you to stop growing --- I just want you to stop growing inside of me. It's time to come out.
I have been walking like crazy, using the exercise ball, squatting and other things you're too young to know about. So, I'm doing my part -- are you doing yours?
Your Aunt Beequee says tonight is the night, since it is a full moon. She also wants you to wait until the 14th since it's her birthday -- don't listen when she talks that nonsense :) I know that you'll come when you ready, but I hope it's soon. Your Uncle Geegee would like to meet you too. He has to leave Thursday for three months. So, come on out!
Also I'm getting worried that you may poop while you're still in there. Don't do it, please. It's not good news for your little lungs, and it is really, really gross to think about poopies in mommy.
Daddy is really excited for you to come out too!! We're waiting to meet you and see who you look like. He thinks that you'll have my thin ears (he likes to tease me about them). I hope you get his super sweet dimples. We love you so much!! Come out so we can squeeze and snuggle you! (between you and me, I need a new snuggle buddy. Your puppy Tipsy likes to lay on daddy ALL the time, so I get left with snuggling with your kitty Tacoose. So will you come out and snuggle me?!)
We're waiting for you - not very patiently - but waiting. :)
love,
mommy
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Uneventful appointment yesterday :(
The good news is that my blood pressure was normal. The week before it was high, then over the weekend a random visit to the Wal-Mart BP chair indicated that it was elevated - So that's good news I don't have to worry about my BP.
He said the baby's heartbeat is great! - it scared me for a second when he couldn't find it as quickly as he normally does -
So I had pretty good news up until the exam....yep, you guess it, the exam revealed that I'm still thinning (but he didn't give me a percentage yet) and shut tight. On top of it all I felt crampiness the rest of the afternoon and evening - not exciting crampiness, just a 'dull-I'm-not-going-to-dialate-you-only-piss-you-off-and-make-you-feel-uncomfortable-type-crampiness'
yea. Those kind of cramps.
So I go back next Tuesday at 39 1/2 weeks and PRAY that something is happening. If not we will discuss being overdue and induction ::cries silently::
How far along? 38w 4days
Total weight gain/loss: 30 pounds now
Maternity clothes? they suck and don't cover up my belly that has recently dropped. I HATE them.
Stretch marks? ::sigh::
Sleep: more or less sleeping has become napping. Between waking up to pee and my arms falling asleep it's great to get maybe 2 hours straight.
Best moment this week: Saturday when we went shopping for things. I feel more prepared now
Movement: Oh, I didn't mention this in between peeing and my arms falling asleep? Yea, he only likes to squirm and move when it's time for me to go to bed.
Food cravings: snow cones - but that's not pregnancy related.
Gender: little boy
Labor Signs: don't tease me
Belly Button in or out? Top part is out, bottom in...still wierd
What I miss: feeling pretty
What I am looking forward to: having him
Weekly Wisdom: I don't have any. I feel very defeated at this moment. I want to go home and cry.
Milestones: I've outgrown maternity shirts....whoo hoo...let's celebrate.
He said the baby's heartbeat is great! - it scared me for a second when he couldn't find it as quickly as he normally does -
So I had pretty good news up until the exam....yep, you guess it, the exam revealed that I'm still thinning (but he didn't give me a percentage yet) and shut tight. On top of it all I felt crampiness the rest of the afternoon and evening - not exciting crampiness, just a 'dull-I'm-not-going-to-dialate-you-only-piss-you-off-and-make-you-feel-uncomfortable-type-crampiness'
yea. Those kind of cramps.
So I go back next Tuesday at 39 1/2 weeks and PRAY that something is happening. If not we will discuss being overdue and induction ::cries silently::
How far along? 38w 4days
Total weight gain/loss: 30 pounds now
Maternity clothes? they suck and don't cover up my belly that has recently dropped. I HATE them.
Stretch marks? ::sigh::
Sleep: more or less sleeping has become napping. Between waking up to pee and my arms falling asleep it's great to get maybe 2 hours straight.
Best moment this week: Saturday when we went shopping for things. I feel more prepared now
Movement: Oh, I didn't mention this in between peeing and my arms falling asleep? Yea, he only likes to squirm and move when it's time for me to go to bed.
Food cravings: snow cones - but that's not pregnancy related.
Gender: little boy
Labor Signs: don't tease me
Belly Button in or out? Top part is out, bottom in...still wierd
What I miss: feeling pretty
What I am looking forward to: having him
Weekly Wisdom: I don't have any. I feel very defeated at this moment. I want to go home and cry.
Milestones: I've outgrown maternity shirts....whoo hoo...let's celebrate.
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